First, let me start this off by saying I am feeling some guilt. Come on, I know some of you moms have it! You love your kids more than life itself but sometimes when you can sneak away by yourself and you LOVE it, there is a little bit of mommy guilt hanging around. Well, let me say that I am feeling guilty even writing about this!
Today I volunteered to help at V's school at an event called Track Attack. It was held at the high school and I had an hour shift at the concession stand handing out sno cones, coke (the southern term for pop, haha)and popcorn. The kids (K-6th) grade had fun activities outside where it was HOT HOT HOT!!! At least I was in a covered building with 3 fans on us moms who were volunteering to keep us cool!
I didn't think it would be a good place to have H hanging out with me so I put her in the Mothers Day Out program at our church for the day- 9am-2pm. The only other time I brought her there for "school" was when I had my bladder surgery last Oct. So I played it up real big all week- I told her she was going to school just like V does every day! She was going to play, have a snack, eat her lunch and nap. Then mommy was going to pick her up!
One of the good things was that it was at our church and her "school" was in her SS room she goes to every Sunday! And she knew most of the teachers so there wasn't too much new that she would have to get used to. It was just that it was a different routine and she wasn't with mommy all day.
So, when I got there to pick her up I was so excited! I hadn't seen her since 9 this morning and the hug she gave me when I saw her was so precious. She was sitting there in a diaper, shirt and socks. Hmmm, I thought! Miss Shannon (her teacher) explained to me that she was dry all day (yes, she refuses to potty train, still) and she thinks she just went all at once and soaked through her shorts! I didn't bring an extra pair of shorts because we never have that problem at home but today her day was all different! And H refused to wear the extra pair of pants Miss Shannon gave her to wear. Also, she refused to eat her lunch because she said "I eat lunch at home". And she also refused to nap because she told everyone "I nap at home". Soooo, I'm thinking a bit of a change in her routine might do her some good! :)
I did notice that she was a bit sillier after I picked her up and after we came home she also seemed a little bit "older" in her talking (if that makes any sense). It seemed like she "grew up" a little bit in the day I didn't share with her! So, all in all, I think it was a great experience for her. I asked her if she wanted to go back tomorrow and she said NO with a wild shake of her head! I guess one day was enough. haha
So, here's where the guilt came in. I actually enjoyed myself and recharged my "batteries" a bit! I enjoyed myself!! Am I supposed to be able to say that? Day in and day out, it's H and me. We have the same routine- Mickey Mouse in the morning, cleaning, playing, walks outside, lunch together and then it's her nap time, I wake her up from her nap and we pick up V from school, play with V, watch a little tv, supper and then whatever our evening brings us- soccer, fun time, whatever! And Monday we go to Barnes and Noble storytime and Wednesday we have library storytime. Every. Week. The. Same. Don't get me wrong- I love me a good routine but very rarely do I/we do anything different. So, when she was gone from me all day and I had "Sheri time" from 11:30 until 1:45 when I picked her up- it was very very nice. And relaxing. Wow. Then I would look in the backseat at her empty carseat and feel a twinge of sadness. But then I would remember I was going to pick her up shortly and I could enjoy myself. It was ok! So, I went to Panera, enjoyed a delicious and quiet lunch and even got to see my neighbor and her daughter there! Then, I went to Barnes and Noble and read magazines for an hour. Ahhh, that's a perfect relaxing 2 hours for me. I felt so much better! So, mommy guilt aside, it was a wonderful "day off"!
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